2009/12/03 (deleted and retrieved - phew)

i've been struggling and fighting a lot, it's not an easy task, not at all. when a bunch of people with so different sets of values has shared the same right to make a decision, it can be so ridiculously frustrating and time-consuming, i can't imagine how much nerve cells die when politicians sit for parliaments . sorry i cannot agree with everything he says, sometimes i just have to believe in myself and work things out, on my own. it's not the matter of being responsible or team-spirit but accomplishing a result, getting a conclusion. each of us has our own, implanted sets of value, if we couldnt even align the basic, fundamental standards, why bother spending time sanding down all corners of bitterness and hopefully "everything will be fine". it's painful, it's also stupid. problem is not solved, the project is not fulfilled, it's creating even more problems more conflicts, and nothing will be accomplished in the end. why bother.

don't tell me it's reality, it's life, it's responsibility - responsibility is not inflexibility. please get us go. i believe freedom would liberate our brains and nerves. i wanna sleep.


phew