It is always nice to talk with siuai,

this high school friend I've known for 15 years. how many times we engaged in hours of conversations in the simplest place. I think in front of you I can be completely myself, completely

you were the first person I told about how me asking him to be my secret lover, you were the only person I can probably get most inspired about "being an educator", I slowly find my spirit for art-making again and really thank you for always being there for me. Really.

I loved how you comment 嘩你面皮咁厚去問佢做唔做得你個secret lover. haha I think the most beautiful thing is that in front of you I can present as honest, as transparent, never mind how you comment, I actually like how you comment - in a way I got to know myself even more.

you also mentioned about 我唔係黎教書我係黎教育, you got to be yourself, be true.. As she was so inspired by Joesph Beuys' quote "Being a teacher is my greatest work of art".  Treat teaching as my own work, not only the channel for earning some cash but actually embark an artistic development from the experience. In the end, art-making is about an life-long research and experiment. 

It is not about what you teach them but how the students can be inspired by you. Not a knowledge-based education but a spirit-based one. 

would really be a challenging year ahead. 

one more week to go then I will bombard myself with all new and exciting relationships and events. I am really blessed to have siuai to talk with. 

I got to learn to be way way way more critical than I currently am.