昨天與矮重回中學，感覺真的不大。
我們走到新 library 外的一片草地上野早餐，
買了油炸鬼白粥炒麵，在龍鳳布上，赤腳煎著屁股坐。

本應不錯的，但眼見四周都改變了很多，回憶跟眼見的，
不太拉得上關係，我坐著的 那片草地，
沒有在自己的中學生涯中出現過；
那時的 concrete playground 現在已是 rubber 造，
還要是有蓋操場。

唯獨一件事，十年無變﹣
走廊的氣味，樓梯的氣味，
那陣好像洗地水抑或是瓷磚的氣味，
最能remind我，我往時，在這裡，
走過，跌過，捱罵過，快樂 過。

breakfast in front of the shop's window, before it's open;
bloody pudding, cute old people, the white laundry store,
the 20% off pizza, tasty pasta, brown beer, dizzy tapasco,
wine wine, pillow case, map, do u want me to hold XXXXX,
cute toilet, ok cakes, mieke willems, 2nd hand, walk walk..

rewind - antwerp /

surviving, in the world of commerce
失 落 總 會 有 點

I miss the hoogstraat family, too. my 852 family is planting a lot of veggies up on the roof, we shall do some farming, we shall do some breakfasts - I miss the happiness.

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mark borthwick
i wonder if he is easy to get along with -
i wonder if i would like him as a person


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AN INFANT EGG PLANT UNDER THE ECLIPSE LIGHT

hopefully / will run faster . hmhm

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睡不著
回來後天天夜歸還未及時發現
jetlag 了 //　腦 海中想著好多事
和一個人。　我知道大家都實在
很獨立，　有時連自己也懷疑
思念的感覺有沒有造假的成分 -
外面雨很吵，很吵，有點打亂思緒...

相聚時間令佔有慾萌生，卻因為
習慣了單身，自己一個人時，
一切思念都彷彿變得人造


想念你很想念我我很想念你的那數天
我渴望日子能chewy一點


不


我想觸到你　立刻
因為我開始害怕

( ♂ + ♀ )

I've always felt like, for me -
A this-kind-of decision, needs so much
courage, because everything is variable
nothing is that secure, a decision barely
seems to stabilize the situation ---------




my brother is getting married
20101127 ,










though I'm, to be honest, suuuper
happy for him

yellowyiyi-siuai-chowcheukyin-
jacqlin-freddie-kwong-jason-fayyu,

今天要謝謝你們給我的快樂。

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the importance,
the necessity,







of getting
depth




within







things
in general -






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what is depth






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what is surface









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things which are seemingly superficial
may not be, erm, let me see.

我 停 不 了 想 像 終 有 一 天 . ...

day-dreaming.

囚

明知道總有一日
所有的悲歡都將離的而去
我仍然竭力地搜集
搜集那些美麗的糾纏著的
值得為她活了一次的記憶

＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿《七里香》

it's fine if you are not appreciating my stuff
it's fine if you are not supporting my preference

it's fine, _____________________no//


it's not fine.
it's not fine.
it's not fine.


it's fine, perhaps
no, it's not fine
no, it's fine, it's up to you,
after all,





am not born to please you -
though your words are weighing

too much


*please allow me to curse*

我 只 是 　只 是 無 謂 地 抑制 自 己 的 行為 和 情緖

可 　你 也 是　

you wont die by doing those,
why not

useless

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衣 物 擦 過 　. 氣 味 依 附 在 皮 膚 上
好 一 會 .　短 暫 的 .　可 否 多 留 一 會

不
被
洗
掉

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so the answer is,
nothing will happen.

it was fast,
almost instant,
like bubbles.


no luck with this,
tho lucky that
it hasn't reached any depth.


2 days, anticipated.