Hüseyin Bahri Alptekin

first tibor kalman,
then husein bahri alptekin.


/

出爐前後

（部分出爐後強差人意不能不掉故此少咁幾隻）

being an idealist

since long time i've been told that i dream/fantasize a lot,

then i thought, sagitarius people are mostly idealists,
by looking up the word "idealist" from a dictionary,
i found this only example -

"a naive idealist who supports philanthropic or humanitarian causes or reforms"




//

naive, so negative, but very much me.

random life update

用左一日重新整修房間　
原本在書桌旁的木書架搬到圖２位置
從此拿底層東西不再 painful /

faiz 造的 shelf 用來放電腦 and so on , so nice
然後用他相機拍下, so wide -







今天
還有羊排羅宋湯

咪再發夢

.







slowly i m forgetting many things which have so much meaning to myself.
and now i have to start picking them up, before it's too late.

and now,
i realize,


how luxurious it is to be,
alone.








.

ho yuk gun

.

好想咬人

♪♩♪♫♫♩♪♫♩♩

.



我開心番啦 yoyo yo yo yo
↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑↑

got myself some new music from
madeleine peyroux + billie holiday,
jazz really has its healing power,
even better than merlins magic zenzen music.


ho ho ho. i can finally see myself feeling better,
天跌落黎　我當到被衿！我要返番去 atelier 2 既狀態。
好耐無用口語 express 自己﹣


其實好爽

☁






實情是，真係無需看別人。





.

2009/12/03 (deleted and retrieved - phew)

i've been struggling and fighting a lot, it's not an easy task, not at all. when a bunch of people with so different sets of values has shared the same right to make a decision, it can be so ridiculously frustrating and time-consuming, i can't imagine how much nerve cells die when politicians sit for parliaments . sorry i cannot agree with everything he says, sometimes i just have to believe in myself and work things out, on my own. it's not the matter of being responsible or team-spirit but accomplishing a result, getting a conclusion. each of us has our own, implanted sets of value, if we couldnt even align the basic, fundamental standards, why bother spending time sanding down all corners of bitterness and hopefully "everything will be fine". it's painful, it's also stupid. problem is not solved, the project is not fulfilled, it's creating even more problems more conflicts, and nothing will be accomplished in the end. why bother.

don't tell me it's reality, it's life, it's responsibility - responsibility is not inflexibility. please get us go. i believe freedom would liberate our brains and nerves. i wanna sleep.


phew